Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Fairytale of New York - A translation

This is a wonderful song, but I couldn't understand a lot of the lyrics. Now,thanks to my mate; Adam, I can.... bless him.

Fairytale of New York....with lyrics, courtesy of Mr Adam Burgoyne.

Here's the link:


Sunday, December 20, 2009

I absolutely love this!

This made me chuckle with laughter -I'm afraid if you're not in the UK, you may go 'eh?'

'Lucy goes to Iceland' deserves to go viral - the fact it was filmed in the Iceland about a mile and a half up the road is purely co-incidental.

I absolutely love this!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Birthday Massages

Yesterday was not much cause for a celebration, but nevertheless it was my birthday.
I remember a time when I would count the months, weeks, days and eventually hours to midnight when it seemed perfectly legitimate to tear open the wrapping from my birthday presents.

The night before my birthday, Harry stayed awake until I had returned from visiting my mum and dad. He was anxious to give me my birthday present, and even though it was just after 10 PM and not the legally correct time of midnight I was happy to open his present he had perched on the end of the bed for me. I am now the proud owner of a grey trilby-like hat.

Sue was equally eager to me to tear open the large box that had arrived a little while earlier and no doubt had been expertly hidden away somewhere. I am now the proud owner of a shiatsu massaging unit. Have you ever tried one? The unit has a sturdy office-type seat back and a padded seat that fits neatly onto an office chair. A hand controlled unit operates the unit, which I have to say is ingenious. A rolling series of mechanised balls within the back of the seat unit pummels your back from the base of your spine to the top of your shoulders, or, any portion of your back you wish. The mechanized unit does not touch your spine in anyway but cleverly works your back each side of your spine with added heat if you select it.

If you have a large curries or Comet store nearby they usually have them on display -you have to try them, they're absolutely great !

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

Read all about it.....

Today's news headlines make for a thoroughly depressing read. Scores of people have been killed in Baghdad following a series of car bombings where at least 127 people killed and 448 wounded, some critically. Climate change continues to provide the gloomy forecast of impending disaster and ongoing revelations at Haringey show how "baby Peter" continued to suffer horrific abuse when all manner of agencies should have stepped in. Drs at a clinic failed to spot that 17-month-old Peter was in horrific pain with a broken back just two days before he was killed.

Yet peppered amongst the doom and gloom are stories of domestic chaos at Tiger Woods home, the Queen meeting with "Lady Gaga" and a bizarre tale of discrimination by a far right wing Christian hotelier abusing a Muslim woman over her dress.

In truth I find that the banal is almost as depressing as the dreadful banner headline lead stories. Both make me wince.

I do not consider myself to have an addictive personality. I don't drink and I don't smoke, I don't use drugs and I do consider myself to be a right thinking, relatively levelheaded chap. However, I do find myself checking the news headlines two or three times a day and feeling far more fed up after reading current affairs. The manner in which news is delivered troubles me. Katie Price aka Jordan, reality TV "stars" and bizarre stories, usually with a sexual connotation jostle for position with the life changing banner headlines.

Sue has a tendency to watch morning television as she prepares for work. The magazine style program; GMTV is delivered in bite sized almost machine-gun delivered salvos. 25 seconds of a story devoted to the family of a soldier killed in Afghanistan leads into a two minute story about an overweight celebrity pet followed by a bizarre quiz asking the capital of France and the chance to win £10,000 by text at two pounds a time when the answers are (A) Bolton, (B) New York, or (C) Paris. The Segway from the tragic to the trite is about as jarring as a fat woman at a disco in her 50's on the pull.

What is happening to our news content, and why do the providers think we need the peurile, pithy delivery? Why is there such an appetite for the banal? Who honestly is bothered about Kerry Katona's weight, or Britney Spears boozing? Is it me, or does the Emperor really have no clothes?

Sunday, November 29, 2009

podcast193 -

Download the MP3 of the show direct from here

Loads of music on the show today, mostly inspired by my ambulance driving mate up north; Gaynor!

Man flu and the West end feature along some great artists; courtesy of the podsafe music network

...hey I've been podcasting for 5 years on 30th December 2009, can you believe it?!

Saturday, November 21, 2009

faith musing.

I don't tend to talk very much about my faith on my blog, that is certainly not something that I omit from choice, my head is usually so full of stuff, the thing that is foremost in my mind usually tends to spill out.

Talking to a work colleague who is also a Christian earlier today brought into sharp focus the fact that life, as precious as it is, is really so transitory. We really are here for just a moment in the scheme of things, and if were lucky we may leave a mark or memory that is of some positive benefit. I expect that most of us we will have our "three score years and ten" plus or minus some years and probably vanish into the ether leaving a memory only with our friends and family that will fade like the momentary mark made by breath on a mirror.

I certainly do not wish to sound maudlin, but if you simply believe we're here by chance, stay for such a short while and then simply decay, what would the purpose of all that be? That’s not only a let –down, it’s just seems so pointless.

I can already hear the opposition view now "…There is nothing else, you make the very best of what you have and that's it, religion is simply a crutch to rest a hope upon".

I’m happy and established enough in my faith to knock that old chestnut back. I feel that I have hope that is actually worth living. Without it, I would look towards the end of the game that I’m now over haklf way through and just see hopelessness.

To live the life of a ‘real’ Christian, not just some nominal title given because of birthright or baptism, is to know real hope and to look forward, rather than put the inevitable to the back of one's mind. I am so very mindful of the fact that I am one of 6 billion and not likely to make too much of an impression to the world at large. I am, however, becoming ever more conscious of the fact that I can make a difference to the few people around me who I interact with.

Even if you're not a believer, the Christian code and ethnic is one we should all try to live to. Resentment, anger, bitterness are good to no one. Charity, love and hope are so much more fulfilling qualities. If we are here for such a short period of time in the scheme of things, why not try to make your stay a happy one?

... and if you really think that life is not worth living, or wonder what the point of everything is, why not try an Alpha course at your local church? Walking into a church with your brains, retaining them and asking some sensible questions to make up your own mind is far better than some impassioned radical shouting Bible Scriptures at you. If it's not for you, fair enough, at least you've tried. If you’ve not tried it, you’ve no real basis to reason why it’s not for you.

Best of luck!


Sunday, November 15, 2009

the continuing saga of DragonDictate

I am continuing to use my software speech recognition program; DragonDictate and I am absolutely delighted with it.

The software is remarkably accurate, so accurate in fact that it picks up on the nuances of your speech and works at the grammar of what you're trying to say.

I find it incredible that I can simply speak and create this entire blog post without using my fingers. I do tend to cheat and insert type when I've forgotten to insert a word or two, with use however I am finding that that is becoming less.

I know of one of the person who has purchased the DragonDictate software since my blog post was created and he is as blown away with the applications as me. I would be interested to hear from anyone who has gone to investigate the purchase of the software, or, even made a purchase since reading my blog.

Equally, I am interested to hear from anyone who uses the software. Please e-mail me at


PS this entire post was created with the software!

Monday, November 09, 2009

how to update your blog without any typing using DragonDictate Naturally Speaking 10

I purchased the DragonDictate speech recognition software at the weekend.

The programme was quite pricey at £90, but I had seen it in action and was very impressed with it. I had the opportunity to sit with a district judge who was using the program in between court sittings. The judge was producing his own orders using the speech recognition programme, the accuracy was incredible and the results instantaneous. Usually a solicitor will wait for anything up to 6 weeks a time for an order. The district judge was handing them out within minutes of pronouncing judgement. I could see the real benefit of the application and decide to purchase it at the first opportunity.

The packaging tells me that the software is 99% accurate - I think it is probably more accurate than that and I'm astonished at how good it is. I am making this post with the application and so far the accuracy is running at 100%.

What is a bit of a bind is the fact that the software will only run on one computer at a time, I suppose that's fair enough, but I would like to run the package on a number of computers that I own. You can purchase a license, I imagine that that would be quite pricey though.

Installation would have been very simple, in fact, it was, but my little Advent net book did not want to play ball. The net book had been shipped with a faulty audio driver (Realtek), I replaced the audio driver and everything thereafter seemed to work as sweet as a nut.

I would urge anybody interested in the speech recognition application for Windows to purchase DragonDictate Naturally Speaking 10. If you do a fair amount of typing, I imagine that this programme will save a massive amount of time and be an invaluable resource. I am surprised that the application does not appear to have reached a wider audience, maybe the pricetag still makes the average punter blanche? To be fair, I would not have purchased the application if I had not seen it in operation.

I would be interested to hear and anybody else who uses a speech recognition programme to canvass their views. Please feel free to use the comments box below.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

podcastpaul podcast no.192

Download the MP3 from here directly - or find me on Itunes by clicking here

Loads of chat and stacks of music from

Graham English
Derek Silver
Slashed Seat Affair
Tara Chinn
Omar Alexander & Soulare

I talk about the BNP onQuestion Time, great adverts, the X Factor and give a few shout outs to.

All music from the podsafe music network, save for SSA and Tara Chinn.

Sunday, October 04, 2009

podcast 191 being bored, ARK, blokes hate shopping...

Download Podcast no 191 here (MP3) file, or find me on Itunes.

I'm joined by Sue (and Harry and the dog) and talk about:

What makes you bored?
DEC appeal
I hate shopping.... and taking stuff back.....

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

And here's the other one.....

I'm singing tenor by the way!

This was a dress rehearsal for a mate's wedding back in 2001 - I'm thje small one in blue,and I'm 6'2".

John (the good looking young bloke) wanted to surprise his wife with a barbers shop quartet - so here you're looking at me, John and his two brothers; Adam and John.

I've another one somewhere- I'll post it later

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Life ....interesting at the moment.

I've conciously not blogged anything following someone telling me to watch what I'm saying as people are reading this. Well, of course they are! This is what this is designed for, and quite honestly, life is too short to care what people think.

It's been a funny old time with Mike flying the nest and going off to Theological College. People who aren't 'churched' have very different reactions to knowing what Mike is doing -they're nearly all positive though, and Sue and I are very proud of him.

With Mike gone, the dynamic of the house changes - very odd, but again, all largely positive - life goes on.

I'm concious of my not doing a podcast - one is imminent, I promise!

....and I would like to say more than I do, but, I am concious at present of who reads this. I will have loads more to say, that's a promise.


Wednesday, July 22, 2009


Download the MP3 of the show here

It's finally here! Podcast 190.

Musical Maestro; Paul Rose ( check out his link here ) joins me to talk about his fantastic new album; Note to Self. Definitely not a show to be missed.

Please mail me: or Paul Rose at

Would love to hear your comments!

Friday, May 22, 2009

photo from earlier

This is a photo from inside No.5 Chambers, Steelhouse Lane, Birmingham. It's a beautiful building that houses a number of specialist Barristers.

The Courtyard is as pretty as it looks and is crammed with the midlands legal community at the no.5 Christmas party.

Quick post

Just a quick post before I start the working day. I'm travelling into Birmingham for a morning conference at a local chambers, off to a client's house in East Birmingham and then into the office.

Birmingham has some pretty poor press, yet it's a great place to live and has a superb reputation for leisure - there are loads of great restaurants, bars, theatres, clubs, music venues and the like.

I'm still a big fan of Birmingham and love the place. I miss working in the centre, but it's good to travel in only once in a while as you don't take the place for granted.

I'll see if I can grab some quick photos into Birmingham and post them this evening.

Right... off to work!

Thursday, May 21, 2009


I am so sorry I've not updated the blog recently, I've been using it more as a storage space for the podcast which is daft, I know.

I've fallen in and out of love with social media and in more recent times diverted my energies there. I'll try not to do that, but will keep the journal here a bit more up to date.

I'm away next week in Cornwall and really hope that the weather holds up. Everyone at work seems to be jetting off to Cuba, Mainland Spain and all parts of the globe. I'm quite content to explore the UK in my caravan, as old as that makes me sound.... I caught Martin Clunes present on islands in the UK on terrestrial TV a few days ago and would love to follow suit - we're ever so lucky here in the UK to have such beautiful parts to travel to within no more than a few hours.

OK, as I say, sorry to have a space that's appeared no more than a vacuum - I really must make sure that I do update more regularly. It does make me wonder if blogs have generally suffered at the hands of social media?

Answers on a postcard...?

Saturday, May 09, 2009


Apparently Liverpool Cathedral's bells will peal John Lennon's 'Imagine' this week.

The BBC article found at this link mentions that spokesmen from the Cathedral do not necessarily agree with the sentiments of the tune, which Lennon says was meant to be an 'anti-religion' anthem.

As lovely as the tune is, I've always smiled to myself when listening to the lyrics. 'Imagine no possessions....' opines Lennon... worth a reputed $150,000,000.00 pre 1980.

Yes John, I'm sure you had to imagine and concentrate pretty hard dressed in your trademark fur coat, with your many multi-million dollar houses and possessions.....

Wednesday, May 06, 2009


Download the MP3 here!

Whoops! I forgot to post the recording of the live stream... Music and chat from Dean Whitbread, Kosso and Phil Coyne.


Tuesday, April 14, 2009

podcastpaul no188 - the one with Tim, Linda and Parky

Download the MP3 here

A veritable feast of chat and music... all wrapped up in a lovely MP3 for your aural delight..

Sunday, April 05, 2009

podcast no 187

Download MP3 here

Hello and welcome to the Sunday show of Podcastpaul - no 187

Live chat with Darren Michael from Slashed Seat Affair and Rowley from


Saturday, March 28, 2009


Download MP3 podcast186 here.

Live chat and music from Paul - and guests Jason Boyle, Aaron Cooper and Lance Anderson.


Friday, March 27, 2009

live and streamed podcast tonight...

Hi - please feel free to join me on Friday 27th March 2009 at this link here.

You can interact on the chat room, I'd love to see you for around an hour or so. Live chat and great music.

See you there!

Monday, March 23, 2009

Space - the final frontier?

In space, apparently no one can hear you scream. I find that when I have space, I don't want to.

I'm doing a very unusual thing right now as I type: taking a break at lunch time. Doing something apart from work. As much as I enjoy my work, I find it becomes less enjoyable - and productive if I don't break the day up with a lunch break. When I have a break, I stay much more focused.

I naturally seem to gather clutter. I hoard files around me. Don't get me wrong, I know where everything is. At home, I'm surrounded by my Macbook, phone, Blackberry, iPod Touch, Camera, and virtually every conceivable wire and cable known to man - I've also a collection, usually of two or three cups and glasses. Why do I do that?

The whole concept of space - staying away from clutter is something I'm trying to action. My life is also full of clutter. This time last year I was studying part time in the evenings, trustee of a church leadership, Chair of Governors, trying to write a novel, musician, dad of four, husband.... the list just goes on and on. Clutter.

Over the last month or so, I've been waking at around 2 or 3 am with my mind buzzing about....everything, with the resultant effect that I can't get back to sleep for hours, drop off around 4.30am and then wake absolutely frazzled in time to drive 30 miles into work - usually around rush hour.

So the cull begins. It strikes me that whatever I do, my family comes first. I spend far too much time (ironically) on the internet - and every other space of time is crammed with...stuff.

I spoke to Sue about clearing ...physical stuff from our home. Again, we seem to hold on to...stuff... and when you analyze why you keep hold of lots of things, there's no other reason than not just throwing it away.

At the weekend I'm ordering a skip. I'm going to take great delight in culling 'stuff' t get some empty space. I'm sadly giving up some of my extra curricular activities too. It's a case of having to.

If I don't get space in all areas of life, just about everyone may hear me scream...


Sunday, March 22, 2009

podcast185 - the recording of the live show...

Download the MP3 right here....

Podcast 185 - the recordig of the live show is right here. Jonathan Ross / Jay Leno eat your heart out...!

Stacks of chat, music and interactivity in a bumper edition of the show recorded late Saturday / early Sunday 21/22 March 2009.

Live chat from Phil Campbell back from SXSW, Dean Whitbread who talks about Rise and Shine and a mate of his who is a bit famous, and Steve Lacey in Seattle who now works for Google but can't tell us why!

Hope you enjoy the show!

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Podcastall - live and interactive

From 11pm - 11.30pm GMT tomorrow I'll be starting another live and interactive podcastall show

The URL is likely to be at THIS LINK HERE - I look forward to seeing you there!

If you would like to add me on Skype - I'm 'podcastpaul'

See you tomorrow!

Monday, March 16, 2009

How I produce a live and interactive podcast.

Not the greatest headline I know...

Apologies for the tech nature of this post. I've produced a couple of podcasts that have been recorded with a virtual audience in real time and with the ability to hold a live streamed video, chat room and hold audio conversations with folks, whilst simultaneously recording the show. The net result is that five separate people have asked me how I did it.

I'm sure there are loads of different ways you can record a live broadcast, I am just able to tell you how I did mine.

I've a macbook and an Alesis Multimix USB mixer. You don't need a mac - but you probably do need the USB interactivity of the mixer that essentially becomes an external soundcard and audio device.

The ease of the Alesis is wonderful. You simply plug the mixer in, and you have the ability to record anything you hear.

I use GarageBand as my recording tool, but the open source programme Auduacity (or cubase) may be just as workable.

I set the GarageBand preferences to the USB codec and then know when the record button is selected, that I have the ability to produce an audio record of everything that happens - including Skype.

All of my audio tracks are selected to open in Quicktime. I opena separate mini player for each track, simpy stacking the audio tracks in a cascade so I'm aware of the next track to play - I do this for soundbeds, jingles and songs I'm playing. The volume button on the mini QuickPlayer is handy as I can adjust the track to my voice.

I use a Behringer mic for the main audio - and an additional Sennheiser mic for any other audio.

Ustream.Tv is my interactive client that allows me to stream over the web. Best of all is the fact that it's free.

The screen can become very cluttered, so I use the mac 'spaces' app which means I can cut between Skype, and other apps with ease.

The Chat room is bundled with the ustream free broadcast tool.

It's a great adrenalin rush to produce the show 'live' and the dynamics are great... but be careful not to have to many networked machines sucking on the wifi pipe as things can crash ith alarming regularity.

Anyway, best of luck to anyone starting out along the interactive route. Drop me a line if you need any further info.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

podcast184 live and in MP3 to download

Download the MP3 here - podcast184 15th March 2009.

You join me as I recorded this live with a group of folks on Ustream!

I'll note the music in early course, but in the meantime thanks to Bob Cartwright, Laurel Meadows and Ed Ross for joiing me live on Skype.


Friday, March 13, 2009

Podcast all.....

If you listened to the last podcast, you will note that it was recorded with a live streamed audience, courtesy of Ustream.

I will be recording another show on Saturday around 11.30pm GMT. Check the site tomorrow for the link, and please feel free to join in.

I'm not sure of the format of the show yet, but can't wait to record - and see you there!

so - Saturday, 14th March 11.30pm GMT - podcastall....

Sunday, March 08, 2009


Download the MP3 from here

Yes - another podcast created to tickle your lug 'oles.

This is the recording of a ustream broadcast I did with some willing victims, er... volunteers I rustled up from a quick shout out, so thanks to Darren, Laurel, Paul, Peter, Rowley, Geoff, Linda and everyone else I've forgotten to mention.

Some ace music from

Rinaldi sings
Gramercy Arms
3 Blind mice
Jeremy Carr
Hollow Horse

We also talk about Ghosts and stuff!!

There's also a Juke Pod Jury moment when we play a completely random track - from the Hollyfields ....and I mistakenly cut them off in my time. Bizarre as their track is called 'Bad Timing..."



Saturday, February 28, 2009

Soulful mix tape.

Have you ever seen Spotify? It's completely free and absolutely superb. I *think* it might be only UK accessible at the moment, but I'm not sure.

Anyway, try this link - it will definitely work in the UK. You will need to download 'spotify' but it's completely free. The link for my soulful selection including Tower of Power, Mary J Blige, Jamiroquai, Dusty Springfield and loads of others is at this link here

If you can access it, have a listen and let me know what you think!

Happy listening!

Count your blessings.

I think I've mentioned this before. When I take stock and sit and think things through, I feel privileged and, although it's an old fashioned word with religious overtones, 'blessed'.

My family is becoming more important to me as I tread the path towards the finish line. If I'm lucky, I'm about half way round the course now, or, perhaps, more realistically, four sevenths complete should the 'three score years and ten' be an accurate prediction. Even if I were to be taken from the track before the average finishing time, I can honestly say that I am still very happy.

As much as I can complain about the level of increasing crime, look at the high levels of family breakdown and see the impact of the global credit crisis, I could do far worse than live in the western world in comparative comfort to many others around the world.

Newspapers and TV headlines are full of doom and gloom, but I live in a place where I can say pretty much what I want without fear of harm, hold the religious beliefs I do with a level of (albeit eroding) protection and still have opportunities available to me if I work hard enough, despite the class system that is still in operation here today.

Often I do feel I should stand up and shout about something I feel passionate enough to believe in, but, when I sit still and the shouting is over, I am at a place where I should really count my blessings, and I'm pleased I am.

When you lose something you once had, it's very easy to only then realise how much you took things for granted. I'm glad to think that today, I was about to sit still enough to consider the things I have, and realise how fortunate I really am.

Before now, I've had a few people snigger cynically at the stuff I've posted on here - we both know who you are, and I can't be bothered to post things cryptically so as not to feel I can't say things without being spied on. Quite frankly, I couldn't care less, snigger away, I'll just smile, roll my eyes and disregard you. If you don't experience the (possibly temporary) warmth I feel at the moment, I pity you. I also wonder why you keep revisiting my site? If you're posting a link or emailing snide comments around (and if you are, be careful I'm not including on the email link - check carefully), think why you're doing that. If you don't value or understand the experiences I've blogged, I feel desperately sorry that you have such a shallow life. I hope I'm wrong.

Life is for living. I don't want to miss experiences under my nose now, only to have memories of 'if only' when it's too late. There's real merit in the phrase 'sieze the day'.

Monday, February 23, 2009

An Epiphany

I just had an epiphany. At least, I think I did.

I'm forever beating myself up about 'wasting' time when I get back from work. As I type this, Sue is watching 'Lark Rise to Candleford' and I'm mucking about, just catching up with things on the web and checking the BBC web site. Wasting time - something I always feel guilty about.

I was in the office before 7.30 this morning, and didn't leave until 6.30 this evening. As much as I love work, I don't want to think about it when I get home, and it's great to do something else, and, quite honestly just unwind and 'waste time'. I've fixed the dishwasher, helped Chris try and configure his PS3 and a new gadget and just chatted to an old school mate. Heaven.

I think that sometimes it's great to waste time, in fact, sometimes it's crucial. It's dead easy to cram every available item into every conceivable amount of spare time, but it just isn't healthy.

I think I may just waste some more time, and I'm not going to feel guilty about it.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Warwick Castle footage

m4v footage here

I took some footage at Warwick Castle - see it by clicking the above link.

Monday, January 26, 2009

Pictures from the Law Society and Library earlier today

In London....

How Bizarre... I am in the Law Society library in Chancery Lane, London. I just had to get online and publish something from the online suite of computers!

Photo's etc later!

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Social Media replacing old RSS feeds and Syndicated habits?

I'm just updating the blog and noticed that I tend to disregard it lately, most likely because I spend time on other social media.

I wonder if blogs have been hard hit by sites like Facebook, Twitter and the countless other sites? It's a question that must have been asked countless times.

I have to say that my blog and podcast following has been patchy, to say the least. I don't think I've necessarily had a change in direction, it's either a personal shift in habit, or, more likely a culture shift?

Speaking to an old online mate; Jeroen the other day I was heartened to hear that he doesn't bother with RSS feeds any more, rather he consumes at the PC. I have to say that I do exactly the same, but tend to be pretty random with the sites I visit.

I haven't bothered listening to many podcasts recently (apart from one or two old faithfuls) and wonder if mine and Jeroen's experience is something that we're all doing now?

If I tend to visit a site, it's because someone else talks about it, or links to it from a site.

What about you? Have your habits changed recently?

Saturday, January 17, 2009

podcast182 Interactive comments on the Gaza Strip & The Credit Crunch

Direct MP3 download of the show here

Today's show is great - because of the interactive comments of others, thanks so much for your contributions.

We look at the Gaza strip & The Credit Crunch

Music, courtesy of the Podsafe Music Network features:

Joe Carey


LA Big Daddys

Judith Owen

Please mail your comments to or comment in the field below.

Thanks for listening!


Thursday, January 15, 2009

Oops... is down at the moment, but leave it with me, I should have it fixed tomorrow.

Sunday, January 11, 2009


I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve. I like to think I'm pretty transparent.

I contemplated deleting this blog, or making it private, but that seems pretty pointless. I've kept my jottings online for 4 years, and I don't want to delete all the hard work I've put in.

It has been four years or so now since I've kept a blog, and I don't tend to hold things back with what I say on here. I perhaps need to be a little more sensible though. If you don't like the blog, then please feel free to stop reading it. I keep it mostly for myself anyway.

The blog also of course also doubles as a place to keep the podcast which I love doing.

After some consideration, I'm not altering a thing apart from the fact that I think I will probably keep a bit more on the blog and continue to keep the podcasts coming. I'm hopeless at keeping a proper diary, and I like the fact that this is a good place to come back to stuff I've put up some time ago (i.e Swaziland). The blog stays then.

It may be a turgid read, as I keep the jottings mostly for myself, so, as I say, please feel free to move on if you don't like it. Alternatively, pull up a chair, and join in. The comments fields are kept on, and if you want to say anything, please feel free. You can also mail me at All the comments made are my own, and they're all done in my own time. I'm not pushing anyone, or touting anything.

I wanted to keep a diary of notes and thoughts on how I'm dealing with diabetes. You need to understand me to understand why I'm doing this. I'm just not that bothered about making my thoughts public, it's siply a by-product of my diary. I would hate people to think that I'm showing off though, not that there is anything to show off! It just seems to me to be too much trouble to keep an anonymous blog, and there doesn't seem to be any real point in doing that.

Tomorrow I've got to go the diabetes clinic to see a dietitian. I'm really looking forward to this as I just don't seem to be feeling any better really of late, I'm certainly far better than I was, but I seem to have reached a plateau. I'm finding that I get very tired very quickly. I'm not sleeping that great, and some foods send me spacey within 15 - 20 minutes of eating them.

I never thought that taking tablets four times a day was so much of a pain. I'm constantly forgetting them. I've got to get used to that.

I'm noticing that I'm not sweating anywhere near as much as I did, and I'm also not drinking anywhere near as much fluids as I needed prior to being diagnosed, so the medication is doing something.

The head rushes I'm getting are bizarre. The easiest way to explain the feeling is when you stand too quickly after sitting. There's a weird spacial feeling I get too, when I'm not eating correctly, or whenever I get too warm.

The one thing I want to get back is my energy. I hate the feeling of being drained. It seems ok when I'm occupied (i.e work) but when I'm sitting relaxing, I could simply sleep for hours.

Let's wait and see what's said tomorrow then. I'm hoping I get some answers so I can get back to full strength and getting back to normal again.