I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve. I like to think I'm pretty transparent.
I contemplated deleting this blog, or making it private, but that seems pretty pointless. I've kept my jottings online for 4 years, and I don't want to delete all the hard work I've put in.
It has been four years or so now since I've kept a blog, and I don't tend to hold things back with what I say on here. I perhaps need to be a little more sensible though. If you don't like the blog, then please feel free to stop reading it. I keep it mostly for myself anyway.
The blog also of course also doubles as a place to keep the podcast which I love doing.
After some consideration, I'm not altering a thing apart from the fact that I think I will probably keep a bit more on the blog and continue to keep the podcasts coming. I'm hopeless at keeping a proper diary, and I like the fact that this is a good place to come back to stuff I've put up some time ago (i.e Swaziland). The blog stays then.
It may be a turgid read, as I keep the jottings mostly for myself, so, as I say, please feel free to move on if you don't like it. Alternatively, pull up a chair, and join in. The comments fields are kept on, and if you want to say anything, please feel free. You can also mail me at email@example.com. All the comments made are my own, and they're all done in my own time. I'm not pushing anyone, or touting anything.
I wanted to keep a diary of notes and thoughts on how I'm dealing with diabetes. You need to understand me to understand why I'm doing this. I'm just not that bothered about making my thoughts public, it's siply a by-product of my diary. I would hate people to think that I'm showing off though, not that there is anything to show off! It just seems to me to be too much trouble to keep an anonymous blog, and there doesn't seem to be any real point in doing that.
Tomorrow I've got to go the diabetes clinic to see a dietitian. I'm really looking forward to this as I just don't seem to be feeling any better really of late, I'm certainly far better than I was, but I seem to have reached a plateau. I'm finding that I get very tired very quickly. I'm not sleeping that great, and some foods send me spacey within 15 - 20 minutes of eating them.
I never thought that taking tablets four times a day was so much of a pain. I'm constantly forgetting them. I've got to get used to that.
I'm noticing that I'm not sweating anywhere near as much as I did, and I'm also not drinking anywhere near as much fluids as I needed prior to being diagnosed, so the medication is doing something.
The head rushes I'm getting are bizarre. The easiest way to explain the feeling is when you stand too quickly after sitting. There's a weird spacial feeling I get too, when I'm not eating correctly, or whenever I get too warm.
The one thing I want to get back is my energy. I hate the feeling of being drained. It seems ok when I'm occupied (i.e work) but when I'm sitting relaxing, I could simply sleep for hours.
Let's wait and see what's said tomorrow then. I'm hoping I get some answers so I can get back to full strength and getting back to normal again.